Sunday, June 28, 2009

whatever it takes

omg sunday :/

OMGOMG. i just heard on the radio that they're having this thing at philharmonic place where they're gona play all those mozart songs and all those piano songs. i wanna GOOOOOO! :/ and no, its not because i wanna become smart by listening to all those music, but if it helps why not, BUT I WANNA GO! :/

i just love all those kind of music. but it'll probably cost like one million bucks. not one million maybe a few hundred. and my parents sure think i've gone crazy because they always think i listen to songs by britney spears and kiss me thru the phone WTHECKKK and songs that makes no sense. i mean i love songs that make no sense for example dont trust me, butbut piano instrumental songs are nice too!


means monday is near and all the nonsense starts again. school. tuition. homework. study. sleep. school. tuition. homework. sleep.


okay number one:

set your alarm half an hour earlier before the actual time you need to get up. like now i need to wake up at six thirty cos my sister has to be in school by 7:10 wtheck, stupid prefectory rule, make people wake up early even though my house is super near to the school =='' and when you hear you alarm ring, you feel GREAT! cos you know you've got half an hour to sleep more. i love it!

number two:

dont complain so much like me. there are people who need to wake up at five thirty holy mama. thats insane! or appreciate it, like knowing that you've got a chance to receive education and there are so many unfortunate kids that dont even have the chance to go school. omg that is so hard :/ even for me honestly. can die. but we shall try! :)

number three:

sleep early. you know what, i realised that brilliant people sleep freaking early. tan juan sleeps at ten thirty. latest eleven. gg. boon lee sleeps at ten thirty. tze lim sleeps at eleven. I DONT SLEEP AT THOSE TIME. super early. BUT. im not saying that people who sleep late are not smart. john sleeps at twelve. liesa sleeps at what, two?! jun yen sleeps at one! weng si sleeps damn late also cos of youtube right hahaha. zhiling im not sure. but she's SMART! and a darn good friend :) but its not that i dont wanna sleep early, its cos, PEOPLE WHO ARE SMART SLEEP EARLY COS THEY DONT HAVE TO FREAKING STUDY SO MUCH AND I NEED THE TIME OF THEM SLEEPNG TO STUDY! -.- and people who are smart and sleep late are just insane because they can freaking juggle between sleeping late and being smart!

and everyone is smart. im serious. being smart is not based on your academics only la please. and im not saying this just because im not good in my academics and i wanna please myself wtheck. im blessed to have good brains. and so should you!

number four:

shower in the morning. if you have time. makes you feel awesome! :)

number five:

dont wake up saying shyte la monday. just think of it like. COOL! MONDAY IS AWESOMENESS! lets see what God has install for me today! :)

okayy sorry, but whatever im writing i dont even practice it myself. it sounds nonsensical but, i shall try tmr! :D omg tmr got extra physics class and dance and tuition :/

have a GREAT MONDAY EVERYONE! :D have an amazing week! :D :D :D

p/s: happy birthday tze lim, although im a little late, but i hope you had fun (: thanks for everything.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


i think im just disappointed.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

the way

i was actually okayy. until my tuition teacher kept saying again and again and again how much time we have left till trials and how much we have to start bucking up. but i dont think im gonna stress now. maybe later. 20 weeks of stress is just crazy.

fridays make me happy all the time. but when fridays come, it just hits me that, four days just passed!

have you ever had to make decisions that sometimes are hard to make? its simple actually but we always tend to complicate it. maybe because making decisions for me is one of the toughest things to do. i have an absolute fear of making the wrong choices. you know that you want it. but at the same time you're not sure if you really want it. and people just keep telling and encourage you to not do it. and you might want to listen to them because again, you're not sure if thats what you want. but you know that somehow when you look back one day, you might regret listening to them.

do we always go with the logic decisions? the ones that make us feel safe. the one that guarantees its going to be okay. or do we listen to our hearts sometimes.

the decisions that you make will shape everything else.

it seems like at the end of the day, you just gotta make that mistake to get it right.

:) nopeee im not emo! :) just tired.

i dont like being sad. it makes you feel so. weak. being happy is much much easier. but i dont think that being sad is a crime or a sin. for me, i think acknowledging that im sad is a brave thing to do. because im anti-sad. being sad for a good reason is okayy.

you know what they always say. when things get tough it is when you must never give up.
i was talking to huajie about it. seems so easy isnt it.

but its tough to stay tough when things are getting tough.

im happy! :) have a great week everyone :)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

made of these

i kinda wish we had 5 days of hols and 2 days of schooling :)

omggg got trigo for add math :/ puan lee rushed like the whole ending part of trigo in two periods! but she did quite a good job. just that im damn slow in absorbing.

by the time she does question three i''ll still be at question 1 figuring what the shyte is tangent square etc and everyone else in class is like WAYYYY ahead. my heart hurts :/ hahaha. sounds damn emo right. nahh.

omg im so tired and my dog is so freaking cute :D okay im super thirsty now. i should sleep soon cos theres church tmr.
OSDFJSUIFHSIFHIDROGJIDFOGJFIOK. OMGGGG. SHYTEEEEE. i forgot im planning games for the kids tmrrrrrr! shyteshyteshyte. okay i rlly better go now.

''because I don't live in either my past or my future. im interested only in the present. if you concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy man. you'll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens, and that tribesmen fight because they are part of the human race. life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we're living right now.”
Paulo Coelho. The Alchemist.

because i know i deserve more than this.


:D i wanna upload the picture of xianhui driving! so hot *drools*

gonna find our freaking awesome nathan scott and live happily ever after.
trust me. seriously.

its been SOOOOO freaking long since i enjoyed and talked and talked with amazing people (:
thanks mel and xian. WE SHOULD DO IT AGAIN! :D
OMG PHOP. my newest addition to where to eat! and i'll know who to call to eat with me MWHAHAH. eh lets try the potato pancake and treasure box next time k xian! hahahaha.
i love you both <3

supposed to be asleep cos need to wake up early tmrr! :/ some english thing at sunway. but i felt like doing the tag that xianhui tagged me. hahahaha. all your fault!

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
cannot tell you. hahahaha. cheeks!

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING ?

happy cos its friday and i get to eat lunch with mel and xian and abit tired.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH ?
jun yen. hahaha.

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED ?
no way ever.

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD ?
yes! but im afraid abit.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX ?
yeahps. still do.

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD ?
YES! very. no im kidding :)

8. What does your last text message SAY?
Now only you know ah? :p haha im gald that you enjoyed :) bring you out soon alright! And omg we didnt take a pic:(-xianhui

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
how much im regretting staying up so late right now and how thirsty i am.

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW ?
i want to go off to bed. my grandparents.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
factory outlet store

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
my dog.

14. Who was the last person who text YOU ?
xianhui. omg we can get married.

TEN Lucky People to do this quiz.
omg so lazy to think!
1. steph tham
2. shingyi
3. jinny wai
4. liqi
5. derrick
6. jenn
7. yewjuan
9. yy
10. karmun

15.Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH ?
me. hahaha.

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE ?
jin? omg weih. hahaha. macho man!

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER , would it be a good ?
hahaha yew juan is married. lol. buttt. yes i KNOW he's gonna be a superb friend!

18. What is no.1 studying?
SPM. lol.

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM ?
not too long ago.

20. IS no.4 SINGLE ?

21. Say something about no.2.
she's crazy :p

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER ?
OMGGG HAHAAHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHAAHA. sorry yy i didnt mean it! :/ jinny wai's taken!

23. Describe no.9.
she's with jinny wai and will kill me after she read question 22.

24 . What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT ?

25 . Do you like no.8 ?

super thirsty.

Thursday, June 18, 2009


my face looks like a burned crab. and it hurts! :/

first week of school. still cant adapt =='' got back all my marks. some lahh. puan lee was very nice because she went through with me the mistakes i made and she explained to me some parts that i went wrong.

but maybe thats cos i did badly and i needed alot of explaination.
of course seeing the mistakes that i make MADE ME FELT LIKE A LOSER IN THE BUTT.
omg ggggggg to the max! i can cry :/

people can get 97! wtheck lahh. if i come back from school and tell my parents i scored 97 for add math, i think they will cry till it floods.
i'll cry also.

you know what, dont even need 97 lahh. 80 also can. my add math marks never exceed 70. yeah yeah go laugh lahh.

overly smart people makes me feel stupid. GET 80 SUMMORE WANT TO COMPLAIN OMGKASJDKADJKSADJSKFJSK. i came up wth three conclusions

1) they wanna make you feel bad and stupid.

2) they want you to say OMG! SO HIGH AR! then they will go AIYAA WHERE GOT. and they ask for your marks. and then

a) if you get higher than them: they will congratulate you with the biggest liar smile that says OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! congrats!

b) if you DONT get higher than them : they will give you a look that goes awwh man, its okayla. just work harder next time, you will do well but SECRETLY THEY ARE LAUGHING THEIR ASS OFF INSIDE and they feel so GOOD.

3) they are just genuinely people who aim high in life and cannot settle for marks below hundred. and you're just unlucky that they happen to bump into you.

hahahah. im kidding lahh. but its true lahh okay! SOMETIMES. COME ON DONT DENY IT. but im not saying about anyone or whosoever. its general. siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedasnya. i know my peribahasa! :D

i gotta admit sometimes i am like that too. but im trying not too anymore :/ i mean if i keep comparing my marks right, there will ALWAYS be someone better than me lahh. thus. i learn to compare with MY OWN MARKS from previous exams. but i always lose my the paper i write all my marks one =='' okayokay must find it.

and a few other subjects also lahh. i think the reason why i dont really learn is because i dont bother to find out which part i went wrong. i get back the papers and check my marks incase the teacher didnt give me the ten marks i deserve by accident and if the marks are correct i just staple them together and keep it in my file and say i will refer to it during the next exam which i obviously wouldnt.

i must study hard. my mum keeps pressuring me.

you know what, we shall all do well! :D cos we're awesome people and if we put our hearts and minds into it, we can do it! :D

i REALLY believe that everyone is a winner in life, its whether you choose to be or not to be.

wahhhh got add maths tuition! :( you wanna cry? i wanna cry. you dont have to cos you're not having add maths tuition.


yayyyyy! :)

being able to feel happy because of God's joy is amazing.

Friday, June 12, 2009

mr brightside

WAHHH. who drank my tea! half the cup gone adi in five minutes!
aiyoo. the weather hot ma!
yea, so it gets evaporated very easily!
haha yea right! impossible! five minutes half a cup gone right.
hahaha. of course nat, of course.

today is a sad sad friday :( cos, its the last weekday of the holiday! :/
but NAHH. fridays are supposed to be happy :D :D :D

i think the reason why i dread to go back to school so much is because im doing everything taking my own awesome time now as if i own the world and im enjoying everything. thus, it feels like i wanna live like this cos im having so much fun! :)

yerr. i dont wanna go back school lahh :( :( :(

anyway, my granparents are here for a week! :D happy happy joy joy. but they're going back tmr :( at least they're here for a week. we went and watch drag me to hell and blood. haha i know scary movies. but my grandpa LOVES scary movies! the last time i watched a movie with them was when i was six! titanic hahaha. so yeah, it makes me feel like a small kid all over again when i sat in between both of them.

my grandad used to work in the cinema for eleven years! i kinda wished that everytime i watch any movies, my whole family will be there too. i mean not to say i dont like watching it with my parents and sisters, just that, it would be nice if everyone was there too :)

it sucks that they're going back tmr, but, im happy that i get to see them :)

but i dont know which restaurant he's working at. but hottt! :D

okay to actually recall again, he's not that hot lahh. if he is, i'll remember how he looks like! which i dont now lol.

wahh im hungry. mushroom soup!

best day ever!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


if only time could stay still for a little while more .

:( second best is out of the question.

Monday, June 8, 2009

lift left to go

happy birthday melanie long li wen! :D :D :D

hahaha, wahh 17 adi! gg damn fast. you've been a really great friend, and thanks for all thsoe advice and motivation, i really appreciate it! :) i know you're going to do great in life because, you rock! and you're an amazing person from the inside out! chase for your dreams mel! and have all the fun in the worlddddd! :)

thats my wife, karmun. hahaha, myself and mel! :)

its monday :/

i had the freakiest nightmare ever. i dreamed that i was trapped in a house filled with zombies amd ghosts. and one by one people started to die -.- but i managed to wake up before i died. thank God.

but i wanna kind of feel like what its like to die in my dream. wahh damn scary lor :/

and the first thing my grandma told me when i woke up was about this daycare in mexico that got burned down. omg :( its just. super sad. kids as young as 2 months were even there you know. its stupid lahh. i just dont get it.

and its been so long sice i had lunch with my grandparents. which is great. i only get to see them mostly on holidays. and they're down here for a week :) thus, im quite happy about that cos i really really want to spend quality time with them. they mean alot alot to me, and i really wish that hols was longer so that they can spend more time here. but i shall not complain because one week is better than nothing! :)

omg. physics homework. its so hard to even wanna start :/

BUT! WE SHALL BE HAPPY! cos its monday and its time to start anew!:) haha happy starting of the week everyone, enjoy holidays doing anything you like! :)

Saturday, June 6, 2009

too much time

i got tagged by sue ann in facebook! but idk how to do it inside there. need to tab here tab there. so yess. haha i have too much time lol. i've got physics work. but who cares tuition is on monday night! i shall do it during monday evening. hahaha.


1. Last beverage: Water. hahaha.

2. Last phone call: liesa! :)

3. Last text message: tze lim. lol.

4. Last song you listened to: No Boundaries-Kris Allen

Last time you cried: wahh. so sad for what.


6. Dated someone twice : Nope!

7. Been cheated on: wahh that guy can go and die. no lahh :)

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope. i dont simply kiss people okayy -.-

9. Lost someone special: Yes.

10. Been depressed: Yes.

11. Been drunk and threw up: hahaha wahh got once. but it was a wedding lahh. too happy de HAHAHA.


12. Red

13. White

14. Black


15. Made a new friend: got i think. but forgotten who hahaha.

16. Fallen out of love: wahh dangerous question.

17. Laughed until you cried: countless time man.

18. Met someone who changed you: nahh. i change people MWHAHAHHA.

19. Found out who your true friends were: thats for sure!

20. Found out someone was talking about you: nope. dont think so.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: arr -.-dont have lahh.

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: quite alot

23. How many kids do you want?: hahaha. i want ten! okayla, maybe two.

24. Do you have any pets: haha got! my pms dog. which happens to be male -.-

25. Do you want to change your name: hahaha my parents gave me an awesome name so nahh :D

26. What did you do for your last birthday: ohh! jun, zhiling, juat and hou gave me a surprise at school! :) and dinner with family, every year also like that :)

27. What time did you wake up today: 0959. damn early for saturday!

28.What were you doing at midnight: playing bejeweled on facebook hahahaha.

29.Name something you CANNOT wait for:my grandparents to reach tmr! :)

30. Last time you saw your Mother: 15 minutes ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nothing :)

32. What are you listening to right now: my sisters laughing downstairs

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: tom from tom and jerry? hahaha

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: the weather! gg.

35. Most visited webpage: haha my blog, facebook, hotmail, google

36. Whats your real name: Natalie Khoo Su Ling the very very awesome. okay cut out the last four letters behind haha.

37. Nicknames hahaha. nat. nattie. ling. khoo khoo bird -.-awesome nat :D susu wtheck. fishing net! internet. whatevr lahh.

38. Relationship Status: married. hahahaha.

39. Zodiac sign: cancer.

40. Male or female?: female ==''

41. Primary School?: taman megah

42. Secondary School?: SMKBU4

43. High school/college?: harvard. hahahaha. dunno yet -.-

44. Hair colour: black.

45. Long or short: Long.

46. Height: 169cm. i think! hahah. better be.

47 Do you have a crush on someone?: what a question hahahaha.

48: What do you like about yourself?: hahaha everything God created me to be! :)

49. Piercings: Ears. belly. KIDDING LAHH! :)

51. Righty or lefty: Righty. but lefty quite cool lahh.

52. First surgery: haha when i have kids la k. but its not surgery if its natural birth right.

53. First piercing: belly. haha kidding! ears. thirteen i think.

54. First best friend: wahh. haha. shawna. back in primary school. she can run like the wind!

55. First sport you joined: running

56. First vacation: thailand hahaha i think.


59. Eating: Nothing hahah. wahh that reminds me im hungry

60. Drinking: nothing ==''

61. I'm about to: eat dinner! :D

62. Listening to : my sister talking to my dog.

63. Waiting for: a prince to sweep me off my feet. no i want dinner ==''


64. What kids: kids who love God and put Him first! :)

65. Get Married?: 26 :)

66. Career?: be a taitai. hahaha. dunno yet.


67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.

68. Hugs or kisses: hugs. haha. no la, they must come in a pair. where got. ooooo. or xxxx. eh got xxxx. but its always xoxoxo what.

69. Shorter or taller: taller ==''

70. Older or Younger: older? not younger :/

71. Romantic or spontaneous: WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THIS =='' both!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: no stomach. hahaha. dont want big arms too.

73. Sensitive or loud: hahah if he's loud, i symphatize my neighbours man. hahaha. both? lol.

74. Hook-up or relationship: hook up wtheck?! relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: ==''


76. Kissed a stranger : what the heck.

77. Drank hard liquor: nope.

78. Lost glasses/contacts: dont wear em.

79. Sex on first date: wahh that is wayy too much mann. crazy ==''

80. Broken someone's heart: nahh :)

82. Been arrested: got. in my dreams i got arrested to a dungeon.

83. Turned someone down: hmm.

84. Cried when someone died: for sure.

85. Fallen for a friend?: haha yes. dont even try to figure out ==''


86. Yourself: always. only at times i dont.

87. Miracles: yes.

88. Love at first sight: not sure :)

89. Heaven: definitely.

90. Santa Claus: =='' maybe when i was smaller

91. Kiss on the first date: =='' no.


94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no. what kind of questions are these!

95. Did you sing today? : hahah got. and it didnt rain! :)

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: kill me if i do.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: when im six.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? cannot rmb what happened last year ==''

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: sometimes.

100. im damn free!

some you give away

wahh. i dreamed i got into harvard law school.

like dude. i barely survived spm!

i seriously thought of burning the school down today. i just cant bear to think that i have to go through everything again when school starts. i know im gonna so regret for saying this when i reach college next time. but i'll regret later. for now. damn you school. damn you.

hahah, thanks nick, you scared the shyte out of me about a-levels. study hard :)

i want mushroom soup :/

OKAY FINE FINE. i sound like some immature spoiled brat taking education for granted. but its spoiled brat's day! so yeah cool!

dont tell me you fell for that ._.

you know, say what you will about the ravages of sports in this corporate age where overpaid athletes expect prima donna treatment, but there's still something so unifying about sporting in its purest form, when atheletes rise above themeselves and touch greatness, and in doing so remind us that we all have greatness inside of us.

marvin mcfadden

Thursday, June 4, 2009

17 again!

hahaha hello! decided to watch a movie yesterday that makes me feel like awwh, theres still awesome guys in the world and well they are certainly not all extinct =='' been so long since i watched a show like this. and ct, i didnt watch hannah montana too okay ==''

17 again is. heart-melting.

and OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMGOGM. shyte, ZAC EFRON IS DAMN FREAKING HOTTTTTTTTTTT. i know i know i used to think he's like some gay person that my sister likes BUT HE'S SUPER HOTTTTTT IN THE MOVIEEEEEEEE :D :D :D

okay maybe he's hot but the character he was playing in the movie was what made me went like awesome. thats only because he was some 35 year old guy becoming 17 again, but seriously there is no guy aged 17 with a maturity like his in the movie. he wasnt exactly matured boring like parents kinda matured, but he was matured with the awesome sense of humour kind. and he was so sweet and loving, the geniune kind of love :)

oh crap lahh, he's damn hot.

okay maybe its just me lahh, but i thought it was an awesome movie :)

just made me wonder if i ever wanted to come back to becoming 17 again years from now. to correct what could possibly been mistakes, made wiser choices, took a different path in my life. but i have no regrets for sure. no regrets of not living the ''perfect'' life.

the future is not clear, and it takes plenty of guts to even dare to find your way in times of unsureness where sometimes the pain experienced is more than bruised knees. or maybe we all just have to keep finidng our way, because being stuck when everyone keeps moving forward is probably the scariest moment in our lives. its been so many times when i turned back because i wasnt sure. but turning back wont bring you anywhere at all.

time to find for some guts. and some plaster incase i fall down along the way.


okay okay, if you have the chance go catch it. but if you're those kind that believes that all these kinda bullshit love doesnt happen, then dont watch it. or maybe you should! then it'll change your mind about it.

awwh man, makes me go all jelly.
i hate addmath project. i hate it i hate it. its been bugging me so much.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009


although i didnt know how to answer like half the paper ==''
gg. accounts seriously cannot just read. need to practice like. ALOT.

i took this quiz in facebook about what age you're getting married LOL. eh all the other quiz damn gay please. what engagement ring suits you? LIKE HELLO. so yeah and guess what, the answer is

HAHAHHAHA. thats insane mann. such accuracy they have. i bet the quiz was created by some wedding planner who intends to con people by making them think they are gonna married next year so that they can earn money by planning the wedding!


liesa laughed her ass off when she hear that. LOL.

tired :/ gg.

trust me, i get scared all the time too. its just whether you're willing to acknowledge it, and fight it back with all your heart.
and i know you will.

Monday, June 1, 2009

let die

:) happy monday! four more days to the weekend. but it doesnt matter now, cos its the holidays! after accounts exam tmr, im freeee! :) for now. sigh. potong right. i know :(

i hope i do well.

anyway, i just read about the airplane that went missing. its the Air France jet carrying 228 people from Rio de Janeiro to Paris according to yahoo news. its super sad :( i mean like i always feel like what will the family members of the people in the plane feel. its like suddenly you go for a holiday and the next thing you know, its your last. i know it sounds so scaryy, but its just so saddening. 228 precious lives is ALOT
heres the link to the full story.

what if what I want makes you sad at me?
and is it all my fault or can I fix it please?
cause you know that I’m always all for you.
safetysuit-what if

nice song :)

studyy hard ang xianhui and suzanna sze! :) i believe with all my heart that God blessed you both with really good brains and kindest heart :)

happy week starting! :)

somehow you always hope for more than you can ever imagine.
and that is not bad at all.