tennesse

i think hans zimmer's are the most beautiful songs i've ever heard my entire life.

through heaven's eyes from prince of egypt is stuck in my head, and its such an awesome song!


haha princess and the frog ribbit ribbit :D was pretty awesome :) we were surrounded by little kids screaming about and hahaha. two 17 year old kids in there lol. EH WE ARE ACTUALLY STILL KIDS OKAY. under 18 whattt :) but yeah it was a great and funny thursday haha.

and okayyyy, im starting to freak out about college plans now etc. because. well because for the past 17 years of my life, i never had to make ONE SINGLE decision. all was planned and awesome and i knew what to expect time after time. so yeah, im pretty afraid now, to be honest. haha i honestly kinda felt lost after spm was over, i know wtf, shoot me. because before that i knew what i had to do was study hard for spm, but now? yeahhhhh :/


but one thing i know is that, i know wherever the future leads me its going to be great, maybe not to the sight of the world, but to the sight of God. its always nice to commit things to God and know that He's going to lead me to a great life ahead, and i never have to worry on whether if i could have found a better higher paying job, or went to a better country to study. sometimes i dont see it like at that instant what He does benefits me but after that i do see it.



like just for an example. i was in matahari last year. and when i first found out i was like, omg type wrongly is it. or haha i think its nat tan, not nat khoo. so i didnt bother until liesa told me eh nat, we're in the same class next year! uhh *stunt* for a few hours. haha uhh okay wtheck?!



i was afraid trust me. come on, those ppl there have IQ of 100000. but at the same time i was excited and to be honest pretty proud of myself. becasue i made my mum proud! and yeahhh. so i was there, it was an eye opener. stressed like nobody's business. because everything i did in matahari was never good enough. you get 80, people get 90. you get 90, people get 100. but i never gotten 80. or 90. hahaha. but hey i made some really great friends even in matahari, and they turned out to be nice and awesome after all!



and then im in teratai this year. well i was majorly disappointed i dropped class. and i kept asking God like, why did He put in matahari for a year, made me felt like im capable of doing anything, and now, degrading me? so yeahh, but i can say that, everything worked out for the better, AND I CAN NEVER ASK FOR MORE. the people i have in my class, the environment, the excitement.



in form four, i was in matahari, made great friends, worked my ass off, and i felt thankful because under all that pressure i know i wouldnt have slacked a single bit. and then in form five, i was in a class with most of my close friends, and i didnt stress that much, and i felt like it was good! okayy im not saying if mataharians will be smarter in the future or teratains will be, but i believe that God knows our hearts and what we are made of and He always put us in a place where we can shine most and bring the best out of us, inside out.


maybe you are a person who works better under pressure, or maybe you work better without pressure. maybe you can mingle around better with your group of friends, or maybe you're not really into having new friends, so what im trying to say is that, everyone's different in their own awesome way, and yeahps, God always has the BESTEST plans you can ever dream of! so no worries!


who are we to judge how great you will be in life next time? or how much money you will be generating. or how big and small your car is. or anything la okay. so it doesnt matter what class are we in right now, or how we decide to grade ourselves as better people than the others or less compared to others, i believe all of us are gonna do great in life, and yessss, HAPPY HAPPY JOYJOY! :D


pls pls stay in touch everyone :(


so yess, all you awesome people whos gonna be doctors ahemm juann and engineers ahemm jin accountant ahemm liesa, juat, physoclogist ahemm melll, and all the other stuff, DO REMEMBER MEEEEEE :D and all the awesome people in arts stream whos gonna be lawyers and businessman, please dont con me :)



time to catch up with important peopleeee! :)
haha its gonna be a great day, cos its friday, right mr szeeee? :)
haha happy fridayy!

sometimes i dont understand

i chose the wrong thermos flask. 10 friggin marks. sepuluh.
not including the other mistakes also -.- im against thermos flask now. no thermos flask for my kids next time. NEVER >(


i saved my curse quota for exam periods. yes liesa yes. haha thanks for being there :) you're the best!
me: what the heck isnt it Y? what the f
liesa: AHH NAT STOP IT. ENOUGH NAT.


shut up jin, i dont even curse that much in school -.-


and omgggg. i checked my ns batch yesterday. and noo, its even worst than getting some campsite far away from home. tahniah! anda ialah something something dalam kumpulan satu atau dua.


CONGRATS WHAT LA. CONGRATS YOUR HEAD LA CONGRATS!


yeahh all of you who thinks what la why so spoilt brat one get second batch only want to complain like she got sent to war, go away please -.-


initially i was okay one, like hey God maybe you want me to go there and be awesome or something. and okayla fine, if i get like the first batch then maybe i would even consider going. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOO EVERYONE GOT LIKE THE FIRST BATCH AND WHAT. im gonna rot there myself in the second batch and die.



upset upset upset.
i slept at ten yesterday and woke up at ten this morning. see how much sorrow i have! :(:(:(

hehe thanks liesa again, you were a superb comforter yesterday (:
and jh(:
and shing (:

stop it liesa. i can see that smirk on your face right now.

ahh screw it la it shouldnt spoil my friday but im really upsettt laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :(
summore i told shing once, ehh i hope we get the same camp! :D


BUT NOW. WHATTT.
okayy enough about this NS shyte.

oh God work out something great for me please? :)

and after SPM what? chill have fun. and then? what?
dont even know what i wanna do after that. everyones like taylors and sunway and mckl and im like hmm i have NO IDEA!
congrats nat you're the bestt.


hahaha, you know what i shall not be upset. i mean things will work out eventually, and yes, :D :D :D
hahaha just a few conversation i remembered we were having before spm in class and during spm :)
cant really remember the exact thing though, but yes roughly there :)



alex: banyak orang banyak ragam. macam kelas ini, ada yang pendiam, ada yang beremosi, ada yang suka merajuk (glares at jin) hahaha.
karmun: ada yang cantik.
david: OMG KARMUN I HEARD WHAT YOU SAID.
jung: ada yang macam lelaki.
karmun: >(

nonsense jung. give you purple color for insulting my wife!

nat: eh liesaaa, if me and jin gets kidnapped, and you have money to save one person only who would you save?
jin: *rolls eyes*
liesa: omg nat i dont know! i know i know i ask the kidnapper to kidnapp mr too okays! ;D
nat: crazy girl.
huajie: eh lets ask alex.
nat: so how, if your mum and your wife gets kidnapped, who would you save?
alex: haaa. both also important la, but not the same la.
huajie: must save one la.
nat: the correct answer is, i will ask the kidnapper to kidnapp me also!
huajie: but the thing is, the kidnapper dont want him
alex: tak guna.

nat: you know how sometimes people just come into your life and make you feel like, you cant ask for more?
david: sorry nat.

jun: die la nat die. the bio dcpip experiment how.
nat: okay just remember lime is the best. highest concentration. rmb jun rmb jun! and orange stupidest one. damn little only.
jun: hahaha cos orange is. uh fat! thats why it has the least! :D hahaha.


and this is why i would miss high school.


and when this worlds insincere, you'll be save here.
rivermaya.

good kids study chemistry. nonsense kids update thier blog.
kill myself.

HAPPY FRIDAYYYYYY! :D :D