Wednesday, March 30, 2011

i think my heart aches

i think if i were to name the most emotional person i have ever met, that would be myself hahaha! sometimes i secretly wish i was a guy because guys are less emotional and they live such carefree lives worrying only about things like gaming and how fast their internet speed is and the worst thing that could possibly happen to them would be their team losing a match or when they cut their hair and go all emo about it because they feel like its bald when there's still hair there obviously -.-

but being a girl is just too much funn! hahaha. shopping, dresses, make up, sleepover, and i can cry whenever i want and its completely okay :p thank you God im a girl! hahaha!

been really busy with assignments, and quizzes and presentations! even though im super tired, but there is something to be keep me occupied :) cant wait for sem break which is two weeks from now after finals! so much stuff to do, gossip girl, clean my room, himym, sleep, catch up with everybody, vacation, orphanages, big bang theory, and everything else! excitement! :)

lucas scott once said when you're truly tested, you discover who you really are. and i've never been a big fan of tests and changes, i love things to stay constant and safe. and the things i am willing to take risks for are very exceptional, for which all have been considered thoroughly and through that i wont possibly regret it if anything happens. but i think as we grow older, there isnt a 101% sureness and confirmation that this is going to be the absolute choice, and that everything will work out just the way you want it to be.

and so for the times when i thought i couldnt make it through ever because there is no possibility that it is going to work out, i think i did. and at times when i didnt know if it was the absolute firm decision, i took it anyway, with uncertainty. but things eventually work out anyway. and when i look back, im glad i did it, although i never knew what would have happened if i took the other one, the road not taken wtf hahaha.

and so i hope even as my heart pounds with uncertainty and fear, it would be the same even for this.

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