being human is okay : )

hahaha. happy friday!
ahh sejarah over today! finally!

phewww. im glad laa. cos yeah sejarah need to memorize damn alot of stuff. now the only stuff left are paper threes. moral ==' . my favourite. i dont even know where the paper with all the nilai's went. and maths papers. yeahh my weakest laa. mod maths is killing me. i never listen in class. and yeah now is the akibat. everyone is already assured and guranteed of getting 100% in my class. so its like free paper. for them that is. haha like i care. I DO CARE. SHEESH.


anyway yeah as much as im suppose to be practicing my addmaths now ==''''''' im just gonna post a short one. rejoice rejoice! new addition to the family! my new doggggg! :D :D :D haha picture soon la. no time to take.damn naughty though. but damn cute laa. haha.

and yeahps. today God reminded me that its okay to be human.

to be happy or upset. or angry. he doesnt need me be always happy all the time or neither does he require me to be all perfect all the time. its okayy to be human.


i found out that. someone whom i thought is awesomely perfect and hot is like totally taken. hahaha. well i only found out after like damn long. as in after i like him damn super long. haha. i wasnt exactly upset. just felt like yeahh. i dont know laa. but oh wells. life like that eh. hahaha.


got smart guy sitting vertically infront of me during exam. whoohoo! not hot. but smart. awesome laa. hahaha. yeahh i think the whole class knows adi. got difference okayy. between thinking he's hot. and liking him. haha. oh well the past is the past but im still nat the awesome! :D hahaha.


and yeahh im sick of everything laa. like exams. and im so freaking exhausted.


omgg please dont give me the OMGG YOU ARE ONLY FORM FOUR LOOK. WAIT TILL YOU COME TO WORK LAA.


shut the *tooooot* up. i've heard that stupid phrase since forever la. and YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO TELL ME THAT BEACUSE YOU WERE ONCE LIKE THAT TOO. except that maybe you didnt rlly bother bout studies last time so it wasnt stressed out for you? yeahh i can understand. losers like youu! okayy sorry. scratch that. i just wanna release my anger. sorry!

im honestly pissed and so tired.

i just want a damn break.

eventhough so there's still so much stuff to do. and yeahh i just rlly want a break la. i've got accounts to catch up. bible knowledge. and teacher's starting form five stuff. omgg. honestly la. i wanna do things that i like too! im missing out on so much fun stuff! i just wanna rest in God. and hang out with friends that would probably be going overseas soon.


i hate classes and im so sick of it! then if you cant make it people will simply assume and yeah im fed-up explaining beacuse its not like they would believe you anyway so whats the point. their mind-set is already there always trusting in their own knowledge that whatever they assume is right. and if you need me to prove it to you.

i dont need to.

because. i dont need to prove anything to anyone.

and its not only studies. its like everything else also la. im sick of people telling me stuff without even sure of facts? yeahh. i mean they tell you stuff like oh come on nat. dont disappoint me. or. oh nat? why laa. i would never expect this from you. or you gotta take this seriously. what rights do you even have to even say this to me? or assuming things without asking? yeahh. i hate it la. if you're not sure. THEN ASK. dont simply say stuff la. im not hurt beacuse its not worth it la. the worst part is that these are people you never thought would do this to you. yeahh but this is life. you cant expect everyone to be considerate.


but then again i have no rights to judge anyone. beacuse im not that perfect either. im far from that. thanks God that i never have to go through all this alone. thats the amazing part of it.

im never alone

and i will never be alone going thru all this nonsense.

and because you cant see whats in front of you you put full trust in God knowing that He's always choosing whats best for you. beacuse after all He's the ever perfect Father. the ever perfect best friend. who never fails to close the door despite all those stuff that you've done to Him. and He's always waiting at the door there. not only waiting. but running towards you even when He sees you still far away.

thank you awesome God :)

im done with living my life on other people's expectation.

im tired of living on what people tell me to live on.

awesome nat is back! haha. awesome nat is always here. just that she's awesomer now. haha sorry laaaa. syok sendiri. i feel so freeeee! :D
i've got so much love to spread around. haha.
its okay to be human right? haha. nights ;)

p/s: happy birthday quah. dong. and juliet! :D have an awesome one!