fixing my eyes

coming clean and being honest makes you feel. free.

well. after much courage, i told my mum about my trials. especially accounts. :/

and what breaks my heart is that, because of what i do, i know it disappoints her. and i know that in the deepest corner of her heart she's afraid and she must be thinking, omg nat, spm is one month away. cannot help but share the same fear.


and yes, if i tell you im not afraid i would tell you a lie as equivalent as nathan scott is not amazingly awesome.

and well. im kinda disppointed but there is no point in grieving (thank you liesa and david cook)


truly this period of my life where hopes are not very high, and i feel like im in wasteland dying to get out of it, really tested my faith and where i truly fix my eyes on.


sometimes i feel like, didnt i work hard already, when people sleeping and going out 24/7 score better, it discourages me. and honestly sometimes i kinda wish i could be like them too. i know study smart right. where have i went wrong?


but, despite of anything now, its just a time to keep moving forward, and know that God's in control and that my future is secured and im going to live the best life ever. call that self comfort if you must, but its truly more than that to me in every single way of my life.


so yes, time to pesevere, and time to turn that 60 add math mark to marks i could only dream of but didnt dare to hope for.

help me fix my eyes onto you Jesus, every single day of my life.

love is like that

YAYYYYYYYYY EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR! :D
could never have done it without God! :)

wahh the english passage about the butterfly made me sad :/ i cannot read any stories that are sad or watch any movies that are sad, thats why i rather not watch sad movies in the cinema cos i know i sure cry like shyte, cinemas are for shows like gamer where there is no way i can cry, though it was quite sad abit la okay. if i watch meet the robinsons in the cinema right, cry till the whole cinema collapse.


hehe, i think hans zimmer songs kept me at ease whenever i felt stressed out, and i just thought iof you-tubing it today, because the best songs that he composed for pearl harbour are the ones i like best :)


trust me, you'll like his soundtracks if you are a fan of orchesteral violin and piano kinda music, then its awesomeeee :D
and omg super super sad, because pearl harbour is truly one of the saddest, most touching, and one of the shows i cried most until i have no mood to do anything else :/


and some of the quotes from the movie made me :'(


rafe: you are so beautiful it hurts.
evelyn: it's your nose that hurts.
rafe: i think it's my heart.

rafe:danny, you can't die. you can't die. you know why? 'cause you're gonna be a father. you're gonna be a daddy. i wasn't supposed to tell you. you're gonna be a father.
danny:no, you are. :'( :'(

evelyn: rafe i'm pregnant... ididn't even know until the day you turned up alive... and then all this happened... i haven't told danny... i don't want him to know. all he needs to think about is how to do this mission and get back alive. oh rafe, all i ever wanted was for us to have a home and grow old together, but life never asked me what i wanted. now i'm going to give danny my whole heart... but i don't think i'll ever look at another sunset without thinking of you... i'll love you my whole life.

tsktsk. saddddddd.

okayy fine, pearl harbour isnt exactly about all the stuff in the history book, but i still like it :)

im not ever gonna let any of my friends go war;(

omg its 145, time to sleep, without setting my alarm clock! :D

harhar.

Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.” - Walt Disney.