dang

''aiyoo after this must hardcore adi. work hard everyday like got exams. cannot relax anymore''
wtf?!!!!!!!
next time when your grandchildren asked what you enjoyed the most during highschool days, tell them, ''i was a loser, who wasted my highschool life being kiasu''

i thought i was REALLY LOOKING forward to this day but when exams was over i felt so tired that i didnt even feel the joy of finishing my exams ._. it just felt like, normal only =='' and all the lower secondary students from the other block shouted like they just ended SPM wtheck ._.


anyway, i gotta say that this week is absolutetly not one of the good weeks. except for the part where exams are over, and seeing jin drive, makes me feel so freaking proud of him, cos he's like so grown up, tskk, and knowing that i can always turn to liesa, and thanks xianhui, your texts really made me felt good :)


this is going to be so emo, but just bear with it lahh kay, cos. yeah :)


yesterday, i was damn freaking exhausted adi, and i felt asleep during the evening cos no tuition ma right. and suddenly my door felt like it just got shot by some robber or something and i woke up in shock lahh obviously. i stared at my clock, and it read 0720. i was like wtf! omg MORNING ADI AHHH. SHYTE SHYTE SHYTE.


i got so panicked and shocked, i cannot describe that feeling. i quickly open my door, and i realised that it was only 1 hour since i slept. WTF. i got so angry because WHY COULDNT MY MUM JUST KNOCK THE DOOR NICELY.


and that i suddenly thought of my add maths, and my accounts and my bible knowledge, and i got some stupid text about some stupid prom thing, and i felt so freaking stress at that moment and i couldnt get thru liesa on the phone cos she was in tuition and jin was having dinner, and i felt so ALONE.


thank you jin for answering it at the end though. BUT YOU STILL SUCK. :p


now i know how lonely and streesed people feel and why organizations like befrienders exist.

omg i should totally call them lahh. hahaha.

wait its not even funny.


yeah so its damn wtf. and the other day my mum asked me to apply for some course lahh. i dont know what is it, but she says its good and etc etc. so i asked my cousin bout it.


and she says like its really hard to get in but no harm trying cos the people applying will have resume like 100 A1'S and head prefect all those shyte lahh, and what i have will be like, how many times i go recess early, how many times i tell the prefect to go and die because they off the fan during recess when i wanna stay in class and sleep.


and when i told my mum it was hard to get in, but i dont mind applying for it, eventhough i dont know wtf is it, she said,


oh even if you wanted it i dont think you can get it also.



SERIOUSLY. wtf?! I MEAN LIKE COME ON MAN WTFFFFFFF. in the first fucking place, if you already have the mind set that i cannot get it, THEN WHY ON THE WORLD ARE YOU EVEN ASKING ME TO APPLY FOR IT?!



usually if some asshole say to me this kinda stuff, i wouldnt mind cos he's an asshole. but holey shyte, its my mum :/ i dont know if it was a slip of the tongue or whatsoever effing reason, it seriously, made me feel like. a bloody loser. RED COLOUR TO EMPHASIZE THE BLODINESS.


it sucks that the people you want most to be there for you when you're going thru shytes isnt there for youu.


i mean, okayla, i know im not that smart, or i bet if i said i wanna go harvard right, 99.99% of people will say, OMG NAT, JOKE OF THE YEAR. not to say i really mind of what people think bout damn it.


ANYWAY, going to harvard or not does not mean you confirm succeed in life also ._. i mean of course its damn OMG! but got people that dont go harvard and still succeed in life whattt. okay i wanna go harvard now, sounds cool :)



so, i shall make sure, that I NEVER ever look down at my kids next time. doesnt matter if i said it by accident or whatever lahh, cos it can really scar your whole life. i mean, i know it sounds so kua chiong, but you wouldnt know how it feels like until you experience it yourself :/



and i kinda think that the phrase i will be there for you through out everything, is just bloody overrated. i hear it so often that i think its like for the sake of saying it. i mean come on, i dont even mean it when i say all those stuff. its just plain bullshit to make me look like a very awesome friend.


omg, i think i can be a bitch if i wanted to man. im kidding lahh wtf. that phrase, i usually dont say. cos i think its a very big commitment to make. i mean wtf, you say you'll be there for someone right, make sure you're there, even if james lafferty visited youu, or if you wanna sleep, or even when you're going thru a tough day. so when i say that line, you can be sure that i mean it with all my heart.


yess thats to you liesa. and jin, not like you care. and xian :) and a few more, but my phone is vibrating. my momentum got blocked. its liesa calling.

its a pretty messed up week. but friday is coming and im happy bout that.

and sometimes, people can do ANYTHING to get what they want.
and when i mean ANYTHING, i mean it for real.
screw them.

and fudge add maths project. eduaction system here in malaysia is driving me nuts.


okay liesa on the phone. comfirm drama :)
sounds like a good way to end a screwed up week. nights.