oh for the temporal love

Tried studying this weekend but it ended up with a pretty big fail. I really dont know whats wrong :( It's bad because I really want to study but I am so sleepy and tired all the time :( And the worse part is from Friday to Sunday, the wanting-ness to study just declines even more :( Supposed to read up past years but I just can't :( I really dont know what is hindering me and I have never felt like this ever. No matter how reluctant I am to start school/college/uni, usually I will be very gung-ho about it for the first week and I want to give in my best but this time its the total opposite :( I really really hope its just the temporary I can't adjust back to uni life after a wonderful holiday period and hopefully I will be able to pick up the momentum fast, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN.

Met up with Jinny Wai on Saturday for dinner at his place, and I got to see Aunty Jess and Uncle and Jin You after so long! Ever since Jin left on Sept I didnt see them anymore, and I also got to see Jin's new kitty cats!!! so cuteeeee! :) didnt manage to snap a picture of them but I used to be not a cat person cos I feel like I am betraying Bobby everytime I love cats and they are not responsive as dogs, to me that is. But they are the cutest! Partly cos it's Jin's and I am biased :P good dinner with a few people, and I wished this would happen every weekend. Hints to why uni is such a dread for me too :(  LIFEEEEEE :(

best friend of 5 years and many more to come :) 

 jou jou :)

desk partner for four crazy years and craziest friend I have :)

super sad Jinny is not coming back next year but really hoping we would all be able to gather again and hope hope either way we would meet back in Malaysia or in the States or UK. Summer has come to an end but. THERE ARE NO BUTS :( walao. okay please recover soon. I REALLY NEED IT :(

and thank you Claire and Ong for having us at Mia's birthday, she's grown up so fast! got to see ee-poh too, good family gathering :)

hoping to a good workable week ahead, crossing fingers a million times!

1st week

1st week of uni has ended! still cannot believe I am in my second year. and the best part is I do not have any classes on Friday WHADDAP! though I will not be conned because timetable wasnt that hectic either last year but I was suffocating like a fish on land. So as for now, I am not going to presume Friday to be a rest day although technically it is!

It's been a pretty loaded week, not super hectic and tiring yet, but loaded. Lectures already begun and because this year's subjects are very new to me, especially with things like Corporate Finance and Banking and Finance. I am quite happy that its is more balanced now, maths and reading are equal, and hopefully my theory part can push me up all the way. Really crossing my fingers everything goes well and even better and greater than well. 

Had a little adventure today, quite nerve wrecking actually. I though I lost the access card for the guard house when I drove out today and collected my cheque at the office! When I returned home, I couldnt find the access card anywhere near the dashboard, so I panicked. The replacement card is damn expensive TT Drove all the way back to office and see if I dropped it on the road and had to rush all the way upstairs to the office and see if anyone returned it or not :( so stress. When they said there was nothing, my heart literally sank and I was super sad. So I had to drive home, no choice, just though I would go and get the new card after lunch if I really can't find it. When I reached home, I went up to change and said a quick prayer hoping for a miracle that my card was somewhere in the car. When I went and check again, I went through every corner and sides and suddenly I saw a card holder between my seat and the gear box! It was almost impossible to see it but I did! I was so happy and it took me quite some time to get it out from there which shows how deep it has went in, and it got out! Thank you for everything Jesus! I can't explain the relieve and joy I felt eventhough it was just a finding of a card and not something super valuable like diamonds or rings. Just a reminder of Jesus' goodness in every part of my life, big or small.

and happy birthday to my lovely lovely Jie Su! your kindness and love is beyond words, and we are all so glad you are one of the best family friends we have. it's been an amazing 8 years and we are looking forward to greater happier times ahead. especially with Jerome all growing up now and Yew Juan!

dugged out a very old picture of us and a reminder of very good times :) many more to come!!



ahhh weekend. bliss :)

second

helooooooo second year of uni!

i know the thing about how our thoughts maketh the situation but I am really really really really not excited for you. but nevertheless, may this be a good, non suicidal beginning to a wonderful 9 months!

oh summer, how i miss you and how i long to see you soon.

J

You know that i love you, 

you know that I want to know you so much more, 

more than I have before;

Jesus you are the Saviour of my soul,

And forever and ever I'll give my praises to you.

days

have we all lost that humanity in our hearts that social affiliations and ties could not be enough to save it? have we all turned our backs unto edges and coldness spreads like the fire, the fire that traps us in the very home we thought we once knew?

swift

''Catching my reflection while passing past a looking glass not long ago,I discovered I was older, even old. There was no sudden melancholy or regret, and yet some sadness in the wonder that it happened while I wasn’t watching.''

I am looking forward to great happenings, eventhough I am quite scared of everything. Jesus has been so good to me, and cheers to everything good installed for the times to come :)

how could it

It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something. 


That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it's worth fighting for


Samwise Gamgee, The Two Towers.