the thing about

priorities is that it changes overtime.

that is the whole point of priorities isnt it :)

and so who am i, to question you about what is and what is not important to you anymore

sometimes it feels like

im so hungry i can die this instant :( arghhh ate dinner too earlyyyy, cos i was too hungry and now im starving like a. cow? thank god my dad is still awake :(

the only reason why i drank that coffee was to stay awake and study, and now, im blogging :( stupiddd cofeeeeeee :( and then when i need to REALLY stay awake and REALLY study, the coffee fails me :( i have this vision regretting my not maximizing fully the ''awakening'' period now to study :( which will come true :( I CAN SEE IT RIGHT NOW OMGGGG :( wasted one whole afternoon napping, -.- by napping it means 3-6. and i have to watch this series at six which im so addcited to shitttt :( so drama, cant miss a single episode of it :( no willpower.

and so i thought after midterm can relax and yayyy! but then TADAAHHH! AWESOMNESS! term paper comes in! the other day i was just doing two paragraphs, i swear i took one whole afternoon. and i need to have at least 2000 words, awesome or what! -____-

havent been watching himym for so long, and was supposed to watch 127 hours, apparently super inspiring according to jin, but no time at all omg :( its supposed to boost motivation for my life or whatever shit and all awesome, but no :( no timeeee.

my stupid braces wire are killing me, I HATE YOU BRACESSSSS OMG :( some people say you'll miss it after you remove them, i can puke the oreos and milk i just drank out right now -.-

was walking back the other day, and suddenly someone called me so loudly from the kindy! :') so happy that rusell still remembers me omg, XIANHUI! THE HOT MIXED KID! :D i used to ''teach''him chinese, eh my chinese awesome k, and he still remembers meeeee! :) yayyy rusell!

i hope to find the missing part which has been gone for so long. and when i do, i doubt im gonna give it away.

and for once in my life, im so sure of the details i want it to be, its so clear in my head, and i can think about it all day long. and all im waiting now is just for God to send over :) afterall

i deserve the best.

everyone does :)

nerd mode onz. tomorrow :)

happiness is when

i get the groupings i want for this semester! happy happy! :D

okay its not exactly my ideal timetable because there are so many 3 hour breaks in between which farmville tada comes in! hahaha. but unfortunately i wanted to die already reading the first chapter of thinking skills book, and there are about 400 pages to sort of ''understand'' which to me means memorize, and thus tada! no more farmville! not. once a farmviller forvever a farmviller! but its gonna be one crazy sem, so hard la all the subjects. but initially it was one class on friday which 230 till 4 omg :( and after going to the office almost everyday and sort of complain by raising my voice kinda a little bit which i apologized later on the guy, i feel so bad, but the timetable management sucks seriously, but conclusion is, i still have a friday class, because no matter what they will always be a friday class, but its in the morning, so thank God! still happy friday, eventhough theres class, but oh wells, at least its in the morning!

bryan is in K1! k1 is for the five year olds, but he's only four, ahhh so cute! :) i hope he's doing well, and even if he merajuks all the teachers will still be kind to him, poor thing :(

cant wait for cny, omg yay! :)

hate mondays, have a good week everybody! :)

its almost the end

its finally december omg wtheck, and just two days ago when i was turning the calendar from november to december, i kinda, sort of, a little cried :/ emotional shit i know, wtf turn calender also can cry :(

2010 is coming to an enddd, and so are exams coming to the crappy beginning, starts on a saturday wtf, what exams start on a saturday, yeah my exams. and the best part, ends on a the next saturday, oh wonderful! there goes two awesome fridays which will be spent im sure not on studying too, my will of studying kinda died, and it sucks :/ no more passion and so called fire wtf, hahaha, unlike high school when the passion was there, sort of :)

i dont think i can handle dramas anymore in 2011, and i just wanna see other people's drama, hahaha take a break, but everyday in 2011 is gonna somehow come back to 2010 and now the quote the past will haunt you down hahaha wtf will be experienced, i practically wrote down almost everything that happened everyday, the day i went to work, the day i met bryan cutiee pie <3 <3 <3, the day bryan finally spoke to me, the first words bryan said to me, which is natolwee, i want milkmilk :) sighhh, the day i went for field trips, the day i gossiped with aunty bonita and made her my best buddy in kindy, the day i went to the effing not a help at all education fair, the day i took my driving exam, the days where i stayed up at night and talked till late on the phone, spm results, and almost every other significant awesome, happy, sad, funny days, which happened so fast and crazy.

and my only hope now is to finish my exams, and. sleeeeeep :) and wait for chinese new year, i dont care about christmas, i dont feel anything during christmas unfortunately, i mean is happy and all, but i dont :D :D :D like how i :D :D :D for cny.

cant believe my sister is in form 4 next year, :') can cry :) so big already.

i hope for everything good to be brought forward next year, and i hope to find back a part of something i lost this year, and go on a holiday, which im crossing my fingers for :)


it sucks when your capabilites are limited by the amount of resources your have, like how some people have no money to go to top unis because they charge fees that cost 50 times the amount of the money they pay for their house, or how some people think they can do anything just because they have money, and i cant believe you, of all people, you're one of the most intellectual friend i have, would say its just too bad that they dont have money to study they like and i do its such a pity, when you have no money, you might as well forgo your brains. were you even in your right mind.


wtf i think i screwed up computing :x

independence

is the best, you dont depend on anyone, nobody depends on you and all is awesome :)

go back

omg :( my heart hurts :(

like i could do anything

im suppose to be studying right now. but :( life sucks.

so anyway, i bought my count duckula duck on farmville, and its the most worth it investment i have ever made, since it cost me 14 farmville cash, 14 usd? but noo, the fv cash just accumulates as you go up a higher level, unless you purchase them with your credit card wtf, and its hardwork of clicking and harvesting, but its so darn cute and it actually has a black cape and a vampire teeth sticking out, and it will move its cape towards its beak (is it called a beak?) and does this cunning laugh, sexy to the max, cutie pie duckyyy, i lovee you!

i cant believe im having my finals in lesss than a month wth, did i not just enrol into college like yesterday -.- i barely remember what happened, and. i cant believe this sounds so emo shit, but i dont even know what im doing :( feels like i just want to get thru this, and people keep saying college years are the best years of your life or is it uni, but for now i dont see whats so great about it besides getting to wear anything i want, and. its modular, so i dont have to remember five years or work for one exam. and. thats all? :/ but i dont have that amount of time to think about it being purposeless, since everything is in such a rush, like a train that charges with full speed, which of trains, unstoppable was not bad, but chris pine isnt hot anymore, sorry.

and i saw this kindy boy and he said NATALIEEEEEEEEE! and came running like i havent seen him for ages, omg, lucky i never cry :( and he started telling me about emily and edward and im so outdated, its the new trains in t&f , never ending new collections, con parents money only, which i will never fall for in the future, never say never right haha. anyway, the thing about kids enthusiasm is that they are never afraid to show it, and they mean it with all their heart, sincere and transparent. when they love you, they really do, like how i see them loving their friends, which is quite a rare occasion, because most of the time they just argue on whether ben 10 is cooler or thomas and friend is better, but when they do, they mean it. i miss bryan :(

had the most productive friday at liesa's place, i think we didnt stop talking from 10 till 5, except when we were watching a walk to remember, and my heart was about to burst with tears, because that is one of the most probably sincere love story ever written, every movie now is filled with sex and sex and more sex, compare dear john to a walk to remember please, the movie didnt even follow the book wtf, the book was the bomb, and channing tatum totally saved the movie -.-

just read one of the most sincere birthday cards i have ever received, and i know you didnt like to say much, but thank you for making me feel like i can do anything, and i hope you're at your best now too :)

have a goodie weekend, GOD GIVE ME THE POWER TO STUDYYY! :(